My motivations and goals seems so repulsive

What do I wish for in this life? I spend a lot of time thinking about products. Products for entertainment, self-aggrandizement, anything, anything at all. Admittadly, many of these products are books, putting me in a minority, but my materialism still astounds me. Do I really "need" so much? No. No. No.

The fact is though, if it's there and readily available, I will want to experience/use it. Can I be blamed for this? Probably, but so can everyone else.

Can I believe I'm right now contemplating the purchase of a seven hundred dollar computer, for basically one program that cannot be used with Microsoft technology?